unfathomable: self portraits from June 2015

I was the youngest in my family until the age of 21 years. It was only in 2017 when my nephew Mehar Singh became a part of my family and took over all the responsibilities of handling the exclusive love and care which the youngest kids receive and which I had been doing well up until his due arrival.

It was perhaps this love and care that never let my family leave me alone much at home. I can’t say whether that was intentional on their part but that is what I now tell myself. I could travel wherever I wanted, with whoever I wanted. I was given my share of freedom all in the right time. But for some reasons, I don’t remember being left at home alone pretty much at all.

These self portraits were taken on one of my first few home-alone days. 

The common trait that some of my extraordinarily brave, smart, kind, and maybe creative moments and memories share would be that I was not with anyone I knew. Or even better, when I was alone.

These are from the 11th of June 2015. I set the camera on the dining table which is placed right in front of the indoor plant area of my home and used the 10 seconds timer feature that allowed me to go ready myself before the click. I have always loved the way sunlight enters from here.

I don’t even know where is that camera now, it was a SONY DSC-H300.  I’ll now go try and find it.

 

 

 

 
Just to share, right now as I type this, I am wearing the same shirt I am wearing in these photos. It’s truly heart-warming.

~ Nihal Kaur