Pain Put In Words; Meri Mata Chand Kaur

Pictures: Sri Jagat Mata Chand Kaur Ji
(15/09/1932-04/04/2016)

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13th of December, 2012
A CURSED DAY THAT ENDED UP BREAKING THOUSANDS OF HEARTS IN WHICH HE SMILED.

When Sri Satguru Jagjit Singh Ji departed, we were left with empty lives because we lost the most blessed hands from above our heads. And the moment when we realized that Satguru Ji’s eyes, in which one could end up seeing the whole universe, will never open again – Ah! From where do I find the words to let the pain out?

I was perhaps too small to understand what magic he had been creating in all our lives, on all days, in all moments. But let me put my hand on my heart and say: every time he gave me Darshan, I have wanted to be a good human, I have wanted to be white.

Our Pitaji, Our Parmeshar (almighty) left us-his children-crying, but because he loved us, he also left us dearest Sri Mataji Chand Kaur Ji behind him to give us strength and to make us feel that we STILL have our Mother who would always have her hands on our heads. Who would always inspire us to be beautiful on the inside first.

Only 3 years and 114 days passed by to that day and disastrously, even our mother has been snatched away from us.
I feel so weak. I feel all my energy drain out. I feel so alone, like, my ultimate home has been taken away from me.

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04th of April, 2016

One message at 10 in the morning about a sure inhuman and possibly the most cold blooded act of two men who I am sure will get the punishment both according to the constitutional provisions and more importantly at My Satguru’s Darbar; and within four hours, all our lives seemed to be empty and aloof. A wave of profound grief, numbness and anger rolled over the members of the Namdhari Sect. This day has damaged a lot of things which as of now seem irreversible and beyond repair..

I can feel the pain that every Namdhari Sikh is going through right now and I also understand that its not easy to keep quiet when what we are made to lose is nobody but our Mother whose love was boundless and unconditional. Siri Mataji’s smile could flip sadness and I believe the aura that she created was beautiful and was filled with peace and content. Through this letter, I send my heartiest condolences to every one who is in pain and I pray to SatguruJi to make everything perfect and back to normal though we are NEVER getting back either of our already lost parents.

WELL, THE LOVE REMAINS AND THE HEART KNOWS.

But, my motive to pen down this article/letter whatever is my concern over the end results of anger which we all might have to face and which is going to be very sad, again. Using swords, putting buildings at fire, hurting and destroying human race and/or nature’s properties IS NOT GOING TO GET THINGS RESOLVED.

I am a 20 years old kid and I know nothing what is happening and why is this all happening but all I know is that This Beautiful Namdhari Panth deserves better Namdharis than us at least. If dedicated enough, kindly research and take a look at how amazing our ancestors have been and how no Guru or anybody from Guru’s family have been hit. MAATA JI DID NOT DESERVE THIS, AT ALL. Its her children, its us who have made things go so pathetic. Its us who love Satguru Ji And Mata Ji but then why are we not ready to rather get inspired from them and try to become better Namdharis be at peace and not become animals that see/feel/know NOTHING when provoked?

Dhan Sri Satguru Ram Singh Ji
Dhan Sri Satguru Jagjit Singh Ji
Dhan Mata Chand Kaur Ji
Dhan Sri Satguru Uday Singh Ji

PS I apologise for I am not a member of the VIPs group but a normal Namdhari Sikh who missed her Satguru and now misses her grandmother.

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~Nihal Kaur